My school work today brought me to tears. And not pretty, soap opera tears. The kind of crying that gives you hiccups, a red nose, and a blinding headache.
You see, I am a good student. I would even say I'm smart. I'm not a genius, but I'm not a complete doofus either. (and if I am a doofus, please don't tell me, because it would make me cry again.) This algebra class is literally giving me heart palpitations. I had to walk away this afternoon because I literally could feel the vein in my neck throbbing and frankly, I don't think algebra is worth my having a stroke. I went into my room, shut the blinds, hid under the covers and had a nice little fantasy about being on a cruise with my hubby. By the way, I'm skinny in all my dreams. But that's another story entirely.
Right now, I have a 70% in algebra, which is the lowest C you can possibly get. It is also the only grade I've had under a B+ the entire time I've been at Herzing. I had just taken a pre-test and gotten a 25%. And this was after watching hours of video lectures on dividing and multiplying radicands with variables AND fractions. Can ANYONE please tell me why I have to know this crap before I can be a coder? ANYONE?!?!
I am looking at the very real possibility that I will not graduate in April due to this one class. And this class is over in about ten days. I have one more regular test to take, then my final, and I am done. And if I don't get at least a D....I don't know what happens. I don't know if I can take it again in March, or if I have to wait until summer.
I know I'm getting ahead of myself, but this next week will not be a studying type week for me. You see, I have my internship next week. I will be driving to Orlando every day and lose lots of hours in my car. Hours in which I am normally studying. And because Herzing opted to use e-books, I can't even bring my book with me to study on my lunch breaks. I am scared. Scared I'm going to fail and not earn my degree over algebra.
Let the crying continue.