Saturday, January 28, 2017

She Designed a Life She Loved

Oh peeps!  I feel pretty bad that I haven't posted in a while, but I've been living my life and enjoying the heck out of myself!

I got past the 90 days at my new job without a hitch.  I love it there.  In fact, I was picked to do a special auditing project which has had me using my certification in a new way, and I love learning new things so I have really enjoyed it.  I work with a lovely group of women who are all very encouraging and so kind.  I have a flexible schedule and half days on Fridays.  As far as work/career, I am very, very happy.

When I'm happy (or sad, or depressed, or just breathing) I tend to eat.  And I sure did.  I didn't realize how much weight I'd gained until I saw pictures at Christmas.

I'm even sucking it in here, too.  

All fat girls have learned the art of the head tilt to avoid that delightful double or triple chin.  I'm no exception.

And of course my father in law posted all of these on Facebook.  So, with that, I decided along with millions of other people in January to change my eating habits, get active, and lose some weight.  My starting weight on January 1 was 259.4.  Not the heaviest I've ever been (I've definitely been over 300 at one point but it was probably ten or more years ago when the kids were much younger.)  I don't know why, but this time feels different.  In the 28 days since the New Year, I've lost ten pounds.  I started running using the C25K program.  I got professionally fitted for real running shoes.  I've signed up for a 5K.  And I joined a gym, where I was professionally measured and given a 4 time a week workout program.  And I actually go.

I absolutely adore being a wife and mother, but now that everyone has grown up and my husband still travels, I'm finally investing time in myself.  I do not feel guilty at all about not coming home right after work.  I go running with my sister twice a week at the park, I go to the gym three to four other days a week by myself.  My goal (I can't believe I'm even saying this because it still feels really far away) is to run a half marathon in 2018.  I've gotten to the point where if I miss a workout, my body really misses it and I feel more tired.  I catch myself stretching and noticing muscle formation in my thighs, and my waist getting smaller.  I don't know if it's the extra blood flow or just feeling pumped, but my sex drive is through the roof.  That's actually quite unfortunate because my poor husband has injured his back again and he's been miserable with pain.  That's marriage, isn't it?  Oh well.

This is the beginning of December when my sister completed her first half marathon.  She's still smiling!

I was not happy about this picture.  No ma'am.  But someday, I'm sure I'll appreciate how fat and sweaty I am here.  This is us after a run at the park.  Of course she's still smiling, Miss Perky Pants. 

One other thing I notice is how fast my hair grows.  From the half marathon picture in early December to Christmas, and now end of January...that's two months and look at how long it grew!  Why do I bother with these pixie cuts?  I can't keep up! I can actually pull my hair back in a ponytail again, although it's tiny and ridiculous.

I hope everyone here is doing well.  I'm not taking clothing pics because clothing doesn't fit well right now.  It's probably the part of my life that has me bummed lately, as I don't feel I look my best right now.  I've never shied away from dressing nicely even as a fat person.  I'm being cheap and not buying new things.  I probably need to get myself back to Goodwill and find pants.  My 18/20s are ridiculously huge, I can pull them completely down when they're zipped and buttoned.  But that fear of giving up clothes is weird.  I probably need therapy or something!

Saturday, November 26, 2016

Thankful, Grateful, Blessed

I had a very nice Thanksgiving, and I hope yours was just as wonderful.  I didn't overeat, controlled my sugar, and enjoyed my family.  Unfortunately, we did not get to tile the kitchen.  We ended up with a flood in the kids bathroom and ended up needing to fix that instead.  I'm not too upset; owning a house seems to come with lots of problems and I'm glad this flood happened while Mr. R was home to fix it!

I have to document good hair days.  Also wearing the jewelry my mom got me last Christmas.  This is actually leather.  The earrings match, although I realize you can't see them.

6 puppies on snuggle mode.

Taking a quick selfie before driving to my mom's for Thanksgiving.

My daughter finally seems to be healthy (and sometimes happy.)  Depression and anxiety are difficult, and it's even harder as a mom to realize that I can't always help her.

Adding a little Bailey's to my coffee.  And that's where the title of my blog post comes from...this awesome shirt I ordered on Amazon.  It's a size XL.  And I truly am; thankful, grateful and blessed.

Sunday, November 20, 2016

Savvy Sarah

Did you guys know I'm 41 years old?

I find my 40s to be interesting.  Sometimes people are shocked when I mention that I have three adult children.  Then I have someone ask me if I'm a grandmother yet (that is NOT funny.)  Considering many women don't even start their families until they're in their 40s, I find that question a bit annoying.  In fact, I have a cousin who just had her first baby at 41 (I'm 5 months older than her!) I have days when I feel like I can pull off late 20s, and other days when I'm channeling my inner grandma and I want those annoying kids to get off my lawn.  This is when I tell you that I think your 40s are a fun time to experiment with different looks and styles.  In my 20s, I had youth.  My skin was glowing (I was pregnant a lot), and I could pull all nighters without blinking.  Then in my 30s, my metabolism slowed down to a screeching halt and I was exhausted from working and caring for three children.  Now the kids are grown up and all pretty much doing their own thing...and I have time to have a little fun.  So I'm starting to play with makeup.

Bucket's math teacher retired (I'd like to think it's not due to her having my son in her class...I tell myself lies sometimes) and she invited me to try some Younique products that she's now selling.  I immediately figured this was overpriced crap.  But I remember when I was doing Jamberry and people blew me off, so I tried a sample.  And I LOVE IT.

Because the items are expensive, I've been buying one or two products a month and I'm slowly building up my stash.  I'm getting rid of the cheaper products that have probably been the culprits of all the breakouts you've heard me complain about since I started this blog many years ago.  I actually am sporting one monster pimple on my chin right now (thank you, spicy burrito never disappoint me!) but I swear you can't hardly tell in this photo.

I'm wearing about half Younique products here.  Concealer (under my eyes and the monster zit on my chin), primer, foundation (the color is Velour, and it's perfect for my weird mix of white girl mixed with a bit of olive skin), 3D lashes, and Savvy lipstain.  My Younique consultant convinced me to try Savvy which is a purple lipcolor, and I almost said no.  Glad I didn't...I love the color!

The only non Younique products I'm wearing are my eyeshadows and blush.

I really need for my stylist to come home from her family vacation.  My hair needs her!  The shirt is "Kim Rogers Woman" and it's a size 1x and a bit too big on me.  But it sure is comfy and the colors were perfect for me so I bought it anyway.  I've been trying to dry it on hot to make it shrink a bit.

Today was a good day.  I went to church, did my Thanksgiving shopping.  Did a load of dishes then went to Goodwill.  My future daughter in law lives with us right now (this house is so crowded...I am claustrophobic over it at times) and got she got rid of four bags of clothes so I dropped them off.  Then I decided...I don't need to go home.  I'll go inside and see what's up.  So glad I did!

I found a gorgeous orange top for $3.  I'd been looking online for one, and I even ordered it from Woman Within.  For some crazy reason even though I ordered the 16, they sent me an 18/20 so it doesn't fit.  So now I have an orange shirt to wear with my brown cotton skirt with the white and orange flowers on it!  I plan to wear that on Wednesday to work.  Then I found a crazy palm tree patterned dress.  I'd never wear it as a dress, but it has a dropped seam so I can just cut off the dress portion and have a really cute drapey top.  That cost me $6.  I then found a blue and white striped "dress" but in my mind, it's a cute tunic.  I'm going to chop about three or four inches off the bottom, hem it and call it a day.  Another $6.  Then I found a black and white cotton dress in a size 1x.  Again, a bit big on me, but I think I can pull in the shoulders a bit.  That dress was on sale for half price so it's mine for $3!  I had hopped into a changing room and the people before me had left all their clothes in the room (that's a no-no!) so I was putting their stuff back when I found a gorgeous print top that reminded me of a sunset...all melty pinks and oranges in a size XL.  I tried it on real quick and it fit perfectly so I threw it in the pile for another $3.  All of these are in the washer right now and I'm sure I'll wear at least two of the pieces this week.

Then I went and got a pedicure, came home, and had planned to do a webinar but it hadn't been downloaded properly so I couldn't do it.  Bummer.  Only a three day work week this week, and then Mr. R and I are tiling our kitchen over the 4 day weekend!  I haven't had a floor in my kitchen for nearly three years.  We have not had four days off together in that long.  We have a pretty tiny kitchen, so it really won't take long.  But he has a bad back, so he's going to cut the tiles and I'm going to lay them.  I might even have enough tile to get a backsplash.  I'm so excited!

Do you have plans for Thanksgiving?