Wednesday, December 9, 2009

In Which I Get My Act Together

Thanks for the venting time, peeps. I know many read, and don't comment, and that's fine. But I felt better typing it out, and so I thank you for continuing to read.

Now that I'm done complaining, I decided to "do." There are a lot of things I can't control about my life. I can't control my husband's job, or the way my kids behave, or the volume at work. What I *can* control is how I react, and my own schedule. So I decided to make some changes, and if it effects other people, then so be it.

I had to drive into Orlando to pick up some fax cartridges the other day, and sat down in my boss's office. I told her how frustrated I'd been lately, and that I don't feel very well, physically. I asked her if it would be okay if I changed my work schedule in order to fit in Bible study time and exercise. I am so glad she was amenable to change. My boss is very young (24), and very, very nice. She said that as long as I working to catch the add ons at the end of the day, she didn't really care which hours I worked. So I changed my schedule from 7am - 3:45, to 8:30 - 5:15. (I get a 45 minute lunch every day.) By starting at 8:30, I have time to make a proper breakfast, start a load of dishes and laundry, spent 30 minutes in the Word, and about 30-45 minutes of exercise every morning before I even sit down at the computer. I'm not thrilled about working later in the day, but 5:15 is still a reasonable time of day. Not only that, but I'll be able to catch some later accounts that I've been missing.

Unfortunately, I'm having to change Tiger's saxophone lesson to accommodate my new schedule. At first I felt bad, then I thought, why should I feel bad? We moved the lesson, tentatively, from Tuesdays at 5pm to Thursdays at 6pm. Everything else remains the same, except I get to put some time into myself. Into my soul, into my faith, into my own body. I didn't exercise today...nerd that I am, I created a spreadsheet with my body measurements, height and weight. While this isn't about weight loss per se, my weight is tied into my health, and I would like to lose some. I'm not going to be frantically counting calories like I did before.

So my schedule for now is this:

6am: Wake up.
6:15 am: No, seriously. Wake up.
6:30 am: Start waking up boys.
6:30am - 7am: start any house chores, such as loading/unloading dishwasher, laundry. Make coffee!
7am-7:15: Make breakfast, drink coffee. Yell at boys.
7:15-7:45: Eat breakfast, drink even more coffee, have Bible study. Continue yelling at boys.
7:45-8:15: Exercise.
8:15-8:30: Quick shower, make another cup of coffee.
8:30-5:15: Work. Oh, and drink coffee. (yes, I'm consistent like that.)

Considering I'm going from not exercising at all, to 30 mins a day, 5 days a week, I hope to see some results.
But most importantly, I hope to see a change in my spiritual life. I've felt very, very dead lately inside. I love my kids, I love my husband, but lately, I have not loved me. I've had depression issues in the past, I've been in a slump for quite a while.

2 Samuel 22:7 (New International Version)

7 In my distress I called to the LORD;
I called out to my God.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came to his ears.

He has heard me. He knows I need Him more than ever. He has made it so that I have the flexibility to turn my life around. With His help, I can and I will. I hope all my bloggy friends will be praying for this change in my life to be successful.


Michelle said...

I know what it feels like to feel dead inside, friend. Especially not having a church right now. It just stinks. I need to take your example and make a schedule for myself. Well...except that whole gettin' up at 6 thing. I don't think so. :) I'll be praying for you. :)

Sarah R said...

Thanks, Michelle. I need to know why you live so stinkin far away.
And I hate getting up at 6. I can thank the school system for that little beauty.