I've had a really hard time logging in to say anything lately.
It's my usual. A bout of depression. Even though I recognize it when it's here, I still have a hard time muddling through. I had already said yes to my boss Nicola for a women's conference at her church. It was nice, I guess. I just wasn't in a mood to receive anything, I guess. I am normally a crier at these things. But I did my best not to get emotional and it worked. Although it was really nice to have a reason to do my hair and makeup, which I rarely do. Nicola told me I looked pretty. It made me feel pretty good.
One thing I do get annoyed about, is when these speakers tell women to forgive their parents for past faults and incidents, and to get along. I have not spoken to my biological father in nearly five years. His last departing words to me, was him wishing me dead. Funny enough, while I do forgive, I have no desire to make up and kiss. Sometimes, I think people just don't have to be friendly. I think sometimes it's ok to not make up and kiss, and to go separate ways. What do you think?
I haven't seen Mr. R in three weeks. Quite a long time for us to be apart. I think of the verse in the New Testament:
1 Corinthians 7:5
Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control.
I have to say, I give it up to military spouses. To not see each other for months, even more than a year? I'd be an even bigger wreck than I am now.
So, I'm rambling. Uh huh.
Oh! You guys would be so proud. I went food shopping at Publix today. Remember my coupon commitment? Well, today, I used $91 in coupons. Can you believe that? 91 DOLLARS!!! I mean, I still had a $188 bill, but still, that is 1/3 off in coupons! I could so get used to that. And I'm not even doing the internet coupons, this is just the coupons from the Daytona Beach paper, and waiting to use the coupons when stuff goes BOGO. Then I pounced and boy did I do a good job! I'm so proud of me!