Sunday, February 28, 2010

Coupons, No Sex, and I'm So Annoyed at People!

I've had a really hard time logging in to say anything lately.

It's my usual. A bout of depression. Even though I recognize it when it's here, I still have a hard time muddling through. I had already said yes to my boss Nicola for a women's conference at her church. It was nice, I guess. I just wasn't in a mood to receive anything, I guess. I am normally a crier at these things. But I did my best not to get emotional and it worked. Although it was really nice to have a reason to do my hair and makeup, which I rarely do. Nicola told me I looked pretty. It made me feel pretty good.

One thing I do get annoyed about, is when these speakers tell women to forgive their parents for past faults and incidents, and to get along. I have not spoken to my biological father in nearly five years. His last departing words to me, was him wishing me dead. Funny enough, while I do forgive, I have no desire to make up and kiss. Sometimes, I think people just don't have to be friendly. I think sometimes it's ok to not make up and kiss, and to go separate ways. What do you think?

I haven't seen Mr. R in three weeks. Quite a long time for us to be apart. I think of the verse in the New Testament:

1 Corinthians 7:5

Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control.

I have to say, I give it up to military spouses. To not see each other for months, even more than a year? I'd be an even bigger wreck than I am now.

So, I'm rambling. Uh huh.

Oh! You guys would be so proud. I went food shopping at Publix today. Remember my coupon commitment? Well, today, I used $91 in coupons. Can you believe that? 91 DOLLARS!!! I mean, I still had a $188 bill, but still, that is 1/3 off in coupons! I could so get used to that. And I'm not even doing the internet coupons, this is just the coupons from the Daytona Beach paper, and waiting to use the coupons when stuff goes BOGO. Then I pounced and boy did I do a good job! I'm so proud of me!


D'Rae said...

So sorry you are feeling down. I have to agree with you on the forgiviness thing. Sometimes (in my opinion) it is better to forgive and then just go your seperate ways.

So proud of you on your grocery shopping! I need to get back into couponing! You have inspired me!

Kelly said...

Hi Sarah,

I'm sorry you're a mess right now :::hug:::

I agree with you. Forgiveness is necessary. Relationship after forgiveness, not so much. Why keep inviting toxic people into your life?

I hope Mr. R gets home soon. That is one of the hardest parts of a spouse that travels...not enough sex (for me anyway. My friends...they think it would be wonderful. whatever! You can have this life lol).

Woo Hoo! I am horrible at saving at the grocery store. Food is our biggest expense! I really need to cut that back.

I've been dealing with depression right now, too. I've even had my meds increased. I've been silent on my blogs (especially my family gram thinks I fell off the face of the earth I think). I just feel like I have nothing of value to say right now, and on the family blog, who wants to hear the same thing over and over. And I certainly do not want to blog for the world to read about the drama with my oldest.

OK....I'll stop before I feel worse LOL. Have a great day!!

Sarah R said...

Aw, Kelly, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make anyone feel worse.

I'm not on any medications except for my blood pressure stuff.

D'Rae, yes. Why would anyone want to associate with someone who wishes death upon them? I'm ok without him, trust me.

Kelly said...

Sarah, you didn't make me feel worse. When I read blogs first thing in the morning, I tend to drone on a lot because I've had no conversation yet.

Jennifer M. said...

Wow! Good job on the coupons! My sister does that and I have no idea how she stays so dedicated. I gave up on it after one week - all that clipping and searching and then having to remember to have them with me at the same time I go shopping! Lol. I wish I were that dedicated!

Sarah R said...

It is hard, and I'm not as dedicated as I'd like to be. I have three weeks worth of newspapers waiting to be clipped. I always have something better to do, you know?