New International Version (NIV)
When things don't make sense in an sad world, I lean on His Word (actually I lean on His Word all the time, but these sad times probably even more). I don't know why my baby died. I may never know. I don't know His plans for me. But I do know that "life ain't fair" which I tell my kids all the time. Today, life was not only unfair, but incredibly cruel to me. Our little Fergus is with Our Lord in Heaven. I will never get to hold, rock, cradle, or nurse my little one. I don't understand it. But I do have the Lord to lean on. I have said many times on here how much I despise Father's Day, yet today I wanted to run on my Daddy's lap and have him wrap my arms around me and hold me. Today I think I understood fully why he is called Father God. I wanted my Daddy today. My Father God. And as busy as the universe is, He had time to listen to my cries.