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Friday, September 10, 2010

The Day From Hell

I normally like Fridays.  Weekend, pizza (well, I don't eat pizza anymore, but I don't have to cook) sleeping in on Saturday.  Good times.  Today wanted to slap that idea right out of my head.  My son's school called me twice today to basically tell me how evil he is (and he really was being a truly rotten kid.)  I found out that all three of my kiddos are failing at least one class; and it's only the third week of school.  Bucket had detention today for being rude to a teacher.  I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.  I feel like I have completely failed as a mother.  My kids are arrogant, rude, nasty, and disrespectful.  I wonder how they learned this; I am certain it was not me, but doubt lingers in my mind.  Blaming my husband makes no sense, as he's not even here; this is clearly my doing.  I sat in my room, and wondered how I managed to screw it all up.  I chose a work at home job.  I bring them to church.  I take them to the library, and read to them when they were little, and kissed their boo-boos and taught them how to pray.  Is this the time when all of my work is basically complete, and I get to watch them falter into the world?  Is it true that for the teenage years, it really is my job to just feed, clothe and house them; that the actual work of training them is done?  If so, then I'm releasing three nutcases onto the world.  They have very little work ethic unless threatened; a sense of entitlement; disrespect for elders; and a callous nature toward others.  I look at them and wish I could redo certain things, but I'm not even sure what. 

I used to think that the best thing in the world I ever did was be a mother, but I don't think so anymore.

7 comments:

Kelly said...

It's not so fun when their will starts to override what we say to do blah!

You're doing the hard work now. You've taught them your values and ethics. Now you get to guide them while they try to figure out what they believe because they believe it, and not because you said so. So much better to do that during the teen years while they are at home, then to toss them out to do it on their own.

I love the teen years; I hate the teen years. Now that two of mine are out of the house, I see growth and maturity in them that they did not have even 8 months ago when they lived here. It is satisfying I tell ya. And they even are starting to think I'm not so dumb after all.

And ftr, I blame Doug not being here for all their misbehavior LOL. It certainly isn't me ;)

I'm sorry it was such a rough day :::hug:::

Sarah R said...

Thanks Kelly. I fell asleep right after I posted this, I probably crashed for about ten hours. They exhaust me completely; although Tiger finally got up off his duff and helped me mow the front lawn before Mr. R came home. Of course, I had to redo about half because he missed a lot of spots. But at least he tried.

mom2nji said...

I can't even begin to comment on the teen years because I haven't been there are a parent. But I remember being a bratty teen.You are a great mom.

Sarah R said...

Thanks Jenni, but I don't feel like a great mom lately. I feel like a total failure.

Randal, Erin & our 5 sweet Girlies said...

Sarah.......I'm at a loss for words because my kids are still little. My heart just ached when I read this & I want so badly to give you some good advice or "help" you but I can't. All I can say is that I love you & that I understand your frustration & fears! I also NEED to tell you that you ARE an amazing Mommy! Don't you dare argue about that.......I didn't say perfect, but you ARE a wonderful Mommy who loves God, loves your kids & you do your very best for them! They know you love them & God knows your heart! I'll be praying for you sweet friend! I'll be there in a few years & I'll be looking to you for advice! So sorry it's been so rough! I love you!

Randal, Erin & our 5 sweet Girlies said...

Sarah.......I'm at a loss for words because my kids are still little. My heart just ached when I read this & I want so badly to give you some good advice or "help" you but I can't. All I can say is that I love you & that I understand your frustration & fears! I also NEED to tell you that you ARE an amazing Mommy! Don't you dare argue about that.......I didn't say perfect, but you ARE a wonderful Mommy who loves God, loves your kids & you do your very best for them! They know you love them & God knows your heart! I'll be praying for you sweet friend! I'll be there in a few years & I'll be looking to you for advice! So sorry it's been so rough! I love you!

Jennifer M. said...

I can't say I know how you feel b/c I don't have any kids of my own, but I do know this is a fallen world and we're all fallen people. Even if a parent does everything perfectly, our sin natures still kick in and we do what we want a lot the time, regardless of how we were raised. Kids do it, adults do it; we all basically want to do what we want sometimes, even if we know it's wrong.

I do believe though that kids who were raised right have a better chance at turning out okay in the end though. They are more likely to have a conscience whispering in their ear when they're tempted to do something wrong. Not that they'll never be bad, but just that they won't get into as much trouble ultimately. So take heart, it might've been an awful week, but have faith that they'll grow up to be amazing people.