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Thursday, October 21, 2010

No News Is Good News?

I am still truding along, still doing the plan.  This week, the results have not been as impressive.  I'm holding steady at 259. But, I consider it a victory, because my blood sugars have been great, and I've had my period this week; my normal week for scarfing down Pepsi and bags of chips by the pound.  I can tell I'm retaining water and so I'm pretty certain that my weight will start to shift downwards again next week.

But I have a thought that won't leave me.  I want to know what you guys think.  I go to a women's Bible study on Wednesdays, and I know the teacher fairly well.  Her name is Laura, and she's an amazing godly woman who I admire.  She has a daughter the same age as Missy, and her two older boys serve in middle and high school ministry, so I know them as well.  I had told her I'd been having issues with medication, but didn't elaborate.  Again, I haven't told too many people I have type 2 diabetes.  It is because of conversations like THIS:

Laura: "Why are you taking medication?"
Me: "Diabetes."
Laura: "I'm so sorry to hear that.  Have you considered getting your stomach stapled?"

SIGHHHHH.  I know she wasn't trying to be hurtful, I know she wasn't poking me in my gut yelling FATFATFATTIEDIDYOUKNOWYOUREFAT but seriously, this is why I keep it to myself.  I don't want people to ask me questions about "what I'm doing" and why, for right now, a lap band procedure is not for me.  Let me tell you why it's not my choice:

1) My insurance covers it, but it's a $5000 copay!
2) I am terrified of anesthesia.  I have fears of dying on the table.
3) I am slowly losing the weight through diet and exercise, and that doesn't cost me near as much as the copay.

I am so not against weight loss surgery.  I really do understand why people do it, and kudos to them.  I will not be judging anyone who chooses that route.  And maybe someday I will, but for now, I don't want to think about it.  So I work on my meal plan, and go on my walks, and dance in my kitchen, and pray to see results.  Would any of you be offended by someone just straight up mentioning weight loss surgery to you?  I'm trying not to be offended, but I suddenly felt like a tub of lard sitting next to her, a trim muscular woman in her upper 40s.  It was hard to concentrate on the study of Ruth, which is such a beautiful account in the Bible. 

Have a blessed day, peeps.  I have a lot to do today because I have a meeting at the hospital tomorrow at 8am.  I'm going to try and do as much work as I can today because my entire morning tomorrow will be in the meeting.  This also means I have to leave tomorrow morning by about 6:50.  My boys aren't even up that early, so I guess I'll be harrassing them by cell phone to get out of bed.  Ah, the thrill of a working woman's life.  Le sigh.

7 comments:

Kelly said...

I was offended when somebody told me I should make Doug have weight loss surgery. Ummm...no! Really. It's not their business.

I am very happy that he is losing weight in a healthy way. He still has lots of weight to lose, but dang is he doing so well!

I've had people say some of the rudest things to me in the way of my health. I feel like, "People, if I want to be 105 lbs. overweight, I will be 105 lbs. overweight whether or not you like it!"

These are the same people who have said things like, "Wow, you are so pretty now!"

HELLO! What was I before? Don't talk to me LOL.

Really people need to keep quiet about things that are not their business. And that includes tell you how to deal with chronic illness. Yes, I've heard about xyz in treating fibromyalgia. I'm doing what I am doing and I don't have to share that with you. And really, I am much more than my disease, so talk to me about something else.

OK...well....I guess you hit a nerve Sarah. Sorry to rant on your comment.

mom2nji said...

People just don't think sometimes. I would have felt the same way.

Sarah R said...

I think it bothered me mostly because it seemed to negate any of the work I'd already done. If most people lost ten pounds in a week, people would be flapping their hands and shrieking "You look fabulous!" but for me; well, it's barely a drop in the bucket.
Maybe I should be more concerned about why I care so much about this. I need therapy. LOLOLOLOL

Erin said...

I would have been very discouraged too! You have been working so hard & I'm so proud of you! Like you, when I get overly affected by something, I have to stop & search my heart to find out why that was so hurtful. Regardless, it was not kind or thoughtful for her to say that to you! So sorry sweet friend! Love you!

Erin said...

I would have been very discouraged too! You have been working so hard & I'm so proud of you! Like you, when I get overly affected by something, I have to stop & search my heart to find out why that was so hurtful. Regardless, it was not kind or thoughtful for her to say that to you! So sorry sweet friend! Love you!

Jill said...

Anyone would have been offended. That's when you ask them if they have considered a class on manners!

Sarah R said...

She's honestly a lovely woman. I don't think she meant it to me in harm, but as her thinking of it as a potential solution to my diabetes issue. But I'm not ready to go there yet. I may someday, but not now.